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Buddy to Buddy–> The Hardest Half for ME to Overcome When Getting Remarried!

For me personally… the toughest a part of getting married once more was studying how on the earth to be susceptible.

That is type of a random subject to jot down about nevertheless it actually was one thing that I struggled with within the first few years of marriage so possibly it’s for others too!  I might love to listen to from others which have gone by way of a divorce/large breakup and going into their subsequent large relationship if that is one thing they battle/struggled with too.

Fast timeline of occasions:

Brooke was born 08/15/2012

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I began the divorce course of and moved again to Utah 7/31/13

Met Andrew 4/26/2016

Married Andrew and have become a step-mom to Knox 7/08/2016

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Skye was born 12/08/2017

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And Beck was born 11/04/2020

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Lengthy story brief, numerous modifications occurred since 2012!

So let’s chat about what the toughest a part of getting remarried was for me—> My mind wanted numerous work and counseling to dismiss the ideas that popped up in my head within the first two years of marriage to Andrew:

“The true me, the uncomfortable, the messy, the deepest elements of who I’m, my actual feelings, my truest ideas weren’t ok the primary time round in marriage so why on the earth would they be ok the second time round?!  Put up partitions and don’t present weak spot as a result of I can’t probably lose Andrew.”

And that story I made up is so incorrect and goodness gracious Andrew loves me for who I’m in every second nevertheless it was one thing I made up, believed, needed to overcome and toss. It was a narrative that made me cry simply typing once more on this put up all this time later as a result of it was a narrative that actually scared me.  I needed to be taught to belief that I used to be sufficient and belief the concept marriage can work all whereas studying tips on how to be susceptible once more.  Placing up partitions and simply exhibiting the comfy sides of me feels loads simpler however that isn’t one of the best factor for a relationship and what actually connects one to others.

It actually was a shock to my system once I realized how exhausting it was for me to be susceptible a couple of months into marriage and be 100% me and open about the whole lot as a result of I assumed the years of counseling/work earlier than getting married once more mounted me… It wasn’t till I used to be in a wedding that I spotted how exhausting it was to be susceptible as a result of up till that time I had mastered being alone or relationships that weren’t very critical with all the partitions I might ever wish to construct.

I’m unsure if anybody can relate to those emotions however I assume I simply needed to share them.  Andrew has handled me like gold since day #1 and would by no means damage me however my private battle to belief and actually notice that has been REAL.  Relationships might be exhausting.  Letting your partitions down and letting others in makes my chest damage nonetheless generally as a result of rejection is painful.  Studying that YOU ARE ENOUGH simply the best way you’re is a battle for me and others.  It takes numerous work to not let your thoughts go down a tunnel of ‘what-ifs’ and cease the destructive ideas and exchange them with constructive ones.  It took investing in counseling (finest cash I’ve ever spent… I did counseling alone and we did counseling periods collectively:) to be taught to rewire my mind to take down these partitions and be me with out worry or dropping him.

Nevertheless it positive does really feel superb (and like I took off a 500 lb backpack) to find a way let Andrew in on all of my ideas/emotions/feelings/rawness.  The connection has been a lot stronger and I’m so grateful for a way affected person he’s with me.

So 3, 2, 1… publish a weblog put up a couple of topic that makes me really feel very susceptible in hopes that it will probably assist others hunt down the assistance wanted to be taught to be susceptible once more the second time round.


Time for a really broad query—> What have been a number of the hardest elements for you adjusting to marriage (if you’re married) or a brand new relationship?  

These of you in a second marriage (or a second large relationship), what was the toughest half for you?

Have you ever had any tales in your head that you’ve made up and needed to toss?



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